Billie Eilish is more than proud to be a part of the Barbie soundtrack.
At the Thursday, January 4, Palm Springs Film Awards, the singer discussed her mental health journey and how the movie helped her heal as she accepted an award for her tune “What Was I Made For?”
“Any recognition that this song gets I just want to dedicate to anyone who experiences hopelessness and the feeling of existential dread and feeling like, ‘What’s the point and why am I here and what am I doing this for?'” the Grammy winner, 22, began her victory speech.
“I think we all feel like that occasionally. If somebody like me with the amount of privilege that I have and the incredible things I get to do and be, and how I have really not wanted to be here — sorry, it’s kinda dark, d— — but I’ve spent a lot of time feeling that way,” Eilish continued.
“I just want to say to anyone that feels that way, be patient with yourself and know that it is, I think, worth it all, and I think that it’s good to be alive now.”
The California native admitted she “didn’t feel” that way for “a long time,” including when she and brother Finneas were asked to the write the song.
“I was in a dark episode I guess, and things didn’t make sense,” Eilish explained. “Life, I just didn’t understand what the point was, and why we keep going. [I was] questioning everything in the world.”